I guess I've been avoiding writing after the last time I wrote here. I think I started writing about death and dying. I don't know exactly what's going on with me lately. I'm very distracted no matter what I'm doing. It worries me a little. I just read the comment from my favorite person. She's right about me being hard on myself. I don't know how to be any other way. Being a perfectionist sucks!!! OK, I'm not going to keep complaining.
I have to admit it's been a lot of fun the past week or so because I've been receiving boxes almost everyday! I have about 8 or 9 more coming and I can't wait! I got 4 horses and some sculpting tools today! I can't wait to get started on my horses and making the tack for the horses! One of the horses I received today is just beautiful! Horses are the most beautiful animals on earth!! I can't believe all of the horses I ordered and the amount of money I spent. Of course, it isn't even close to what Barry has spent on the house and Darrell so I guess we'll survive. I'm not trying to get even, I'm just trying to find something to make me smile in this life I've chosen. It would be a lot easier to leave if I didn't love Barry so much. Oh well, back to my new horses! I bought myself some of the Peter Stone horses and the one I just got the other day is just beautiful!! I'm just going to pretend I'm 9 or 10 years old again and enjoy myself. I may be able to regain some of the inspiration I had back then. We'll see.
