I haven't been back here for awhile, mostly because I just don't know what to write sometimes. A lot of past has been coming up for me and some of it is a little painful. My mother pasted away 10 years ago yesterday and it's been a problem ever sense. I guess we just never listen to or believe those things people say or the things you read about how much you'll miss someone you love when they are gone. Only because we can't imagine those we love so much will be gone someday. The finality of the leaving amazes me sometimes. All I know is that I want to believe that mom and dad and all of the dogs, cats, horses, rabbits, and guinea pigs, that we have loved are all going to be at the Rainbow Bridge.
I'm sitting here feeling just a little confined. I've been doing this for weeks, especially since my foot has begun to heal and is easier to walk on. I have no ambition to do anything right now and I sometimes feel guilty about it. Thank goodness I have the kids. They really are the only ones that keep me going right now and that's one of the reasons I love them and keep them around me as much as possible.
I really hate feeling sorry for myself! It's such a waste of time and energy!!! I have so many gifts from God that I don't use! There is time to do so much and I know that I will regret not doing any of those things. Now is the time to do what I love.
I'm sitting here feeling just a little confined. I've been doing this for weeks, especially since my foot has begun to heal and is easier to walk on. I have no ambition to do anything right now and I sometimes feel guilty about it. Thank goodness I have the kids. They really are the only ones that keep me going right now and that's one of the reasons I love them and keep them around me as much as possible.
I really hate feeling sorry for myself! It's such a waste of time and energy!!! I have so many gifts from God that I don't use! There is time to do so much and I know that I will regret not doing any of those things. Now is the time to do what I love.
"funny," "interesting" & "cool" are not enough in the "reactions" dept. this is poignant & sad, in that yr awfully rough on yrself, esp given the year you've just come thru.
ReplyDelete"the circle of life" is great to watch/listen to in "lion king" but not easy to live, esp @ critical junctures like tenth anniversaries. that's all the more reason to lighten up on yrself - imho.
yup; now is the time - but you may need to stop beating yrself up & see where yr body/psyche take you; trusting, unconditionally & wide-eyed, that they'll take you where you need to go to do what you need to do.