We've had a very rough day, today. We got a phone call from the nursing home rehab residence, at about 2:20 a.m., that my mother-in-law had to be taken to the local hospital's emergency room. We'd been warned on Sunday, by the nurse on duty, that it's what happens when one of their patients has a serious medical problem. In this case G. couldn't get her breath and the para-medics were called to get her to the emergency room. They tried everything to bring her back on the way to the hospital but I believe she was gone before she even reached the ER. We got to the hospital and were about to get out of the truck and B's phone rang and it was the nurse in the ER calling to tell us that G. was gone. B. told him where we were and that we would be right in. It took both of us a couple of minutes to get over the shock and then we went inside. The ER doctor came out to talk to us and explained that she believed G. went into cardiac arrest and that was it. I have to agree with the doctor. I really believe that her heart was just plain worn out. I think it was like a domino effect. Once you go into the hospital and they fix one thing, it sets something else off and then it just keeps going. I'm glad that she didn't have to go into the hospital to die and I'm glad it was quick. If I have to go naturally that's exactly how I want to go. I think initially it's all very surreal because you just can't get your mind to accept it. We went into the ER and saw G. and then thanked everyone and left. B. kept saying 'I just don't believe it.' and I just shook my head. No matter what, you're never ever ready or prepared for that phone call. I'm keeping an eye on B. because I'm worried about him. He's a little overwhelmed right now and he's over tired too. At this point all I can do is be there for him and let him do what he has to do as long as it isn't self destructive. I only worry when he gets quiet. Then I just watch him closely. I love him so much but he's going to have to get through a lot of this on his own. I think he'll be OK. He knows I'm right here if he needs me.
I started this awhile ago and this day is coming to an end now. A very good friend of mine called and she and her husband brought a whole chicken dinner over for us. We sat and talked for awhile and they just left about half an hour ago. Neither B. or I are very hungry tonight, but it was still such a very nice thing she did.
I think B. is exhausted (finally) and will be able to sleep tonight. I really hope so. We have so much to do.......... Handling the death is hard enough but the worst is yet to come and it's going to get harder before it gets easier.
There are so many other things I could write here but I am exhausted to and I will start to ramble if I continue...........
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